What Lies Within

I am simply a comic, very open, unreserved and uproarious Donnabelle when with the right crowd. But hey! I am not friendly, nor I’ve been sociable, I’m not at all responsive, nor have been receptive. However, I’d like to take a crack at and see if somebody would take a look at me. I am humane enough to be benevolent, good enough as an individual and in fact–can be the most trusted stranger you can ever wanna talk to…yet, I’d like life to be reasonable. More often than not, I see myself as the one who always seeks comradeship which now contradicts my earlier statement. Let me explain it further. I’ve deep despondency that only my mentality understands…Sometimes, I find it so hard to give pleasure to people like i feel the need to work very hard on something for them just to earn a smile and yet, I realize in this world of certainty … I DON’T REALLY EVEN NEED that sh*t because nobody knows how to APPRECIATE. Good thing is… I have my pride. Here’s more…It hurts to realize that people only uses people. It hurts to know that they need you around only when you are a necessity. It hurts to know that they remember you only when you remember them, they just holler at you when you holler back at them… It huuuuurts to know that they will ignore you just because THEY CAN isn’t it? Life… yeah riiiiight! So people, i’ll always be in the in the MIDDLE. I’m nowhere on neither sides. I play as fair-minded. To put it in detail, you ignore–I ignore, you care—I care, you don’t? I won’t!